The most memorable day of my life (5th May, 2005)

5th of May 2005 started off as just another day, but i knew that i had to do something today which i had never done before in my life; ask for a girl's phone number. My only agenda for the day was to get your phone number and ensure that for the next couple of months, when the college was closed, i could at-least talk to you if not see you. 

We finally met, had a conversation and then the time came for me to make my move; however, things did not turn out to be the way i had planned.. Although you took my phone number after a lot of persuasion from my side, the fact that you wrote it down on your palm made me really concerned. I somehow made myself believe that this was done because you were not able to come up with another excuse, and that you had no intentions of calling me. 

It was there and then that i was convinced about two things; one, that my attempt had failed and two, that i had ruined my chances of befriending you. I was getting ready to head back home, but as fate would have it, i was made to wait in the campus for a few more minutes. Looking back now, i think that this was the only time in my life that fate or luck had played a part in. What i did during my extended stay in the campus was something i never knew i had the courage to do. 

I Love You. These three magic words popped out of my mouth and probably surprised you as much as they did me. You were quite calm about the whole situation and showed no signs of discomfort, anger or surprise (which i find hard to believe, now that i have known you for almost 5 years). Irrespective of the fact that i had made a blunder by expressing my feelings to you, something about your reaction convinced me that you were going to call me in a few days. I was right, but i had no idea then that your one call would make my life miserable for the next 100+ days. 

Before 5th May, 2005

Life could not have been simpler: an average student in school, company of a few loyal friends, shadow of caring & loving family members and all the material possessions i could have asked for. 19 years of my life had passed without any complications and i was as happy as anyone could have been.

I never really had any substantial interaction with the opposite sex and was not aware of what it meant to be in a relationship. Little did I knew that the 3 years in Lucknow University, an educational hub, would change my life forever.

I met a lot of new people during my first few days in college; however, there were two distinct faces which lingered in my mind constantly. Bollywood has taught us that love at first sight is not an uncommon phenomenon, but I had my doubts about this teaching. However, till this day I am unable to infer what drew me closer to you and the more that i think about it the more i start believing in our Bollywood's age old formula.

Slowly, but surely, my reason for coming to the college changed from spending a good time with my friends to catching a glimpse of you, even if it was for a few seconds. Although the 'L' word never came into my mind, I knew that there was some force at work that was drawing me closer to you. Sitting and admiring you from far away became my favorite hobby. My one good friend, whom you now know very well, understood my condition and became my biggest support in this endeavor.

It was not until our final exams commenced that I realized how quickly the first year had passed and i had done nothing except admire you from a distance. I knew that if nothing concrete was done in the next few weeks I would have to wait for a long time, until the college reopened, to even catch a glimpse of you.

Time flies by, and so it did in this case. Our exams concluded and i could not muster the courage of going up to you and asking you for your phone number. Believe me, asking you for your phone number was all that I wanted to do under the circumstances. However, fate had something else planned for us and whatever happened on 5th May 2005 was as much a surprise for me as it probably was for you.

I don't want to miss a thing

i could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
watch you smile while your sleeping,
while your far away and dreaming,
i could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
i could stay lost in this moment forever,
every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure,

i don't want to close my eyes, i don't want to fall asleep
cause i miss you baby,and i don't want to miss a thing,
cause even when i dream of you, the sweetest dream would never do,
i still miss you baby, and i don't want to miss a thing,

lying close to you feeling your heart beating,
and i wondering what your dreaming,
wondering if it's me your seeing,
and then i kiss your eyes and thank god we're together,
i just want to stay with you in this moment forever and forever forever,

i don't want to close my eyes, i don't want to fall asleep
cause i miss you baby,and i don't want to miss a thing,
cause even when i dream of you, the sweetest dream would never do,
i still miss you baby, and i don't want to miss a thing

i don't want to miss one smile,
i don't want to miss one kiss,
i just want to be with you right here with you,
just like this, i just want to hold you close ,
and feel your heart so close to mine,
and just stay here in this moment,
for all of the rest of time

i don't want to close my eyes, i don't want to fall asleep
cause i miss you baby,and i don't want to miss a thing,
cause even when i dream of you, the sweetest dream would never do,
i still miss you baby, and i don't want to miss a thing